By Deacon Jim Munno, St. Mary of the Mills in Laurel, Maryland
She couldn’t help but think back to when it all began. She was so scared; so alone. She felt so judged and utterly abandoned. No one; no one at all cared about her! But now that all seems so long ago. She shook her head in disbelief. She can’t believe how blind she felt. Blinded by fear; blinded by uncertainty. But, of one thing she was certain: her life was over. At least, life as she knew it was over. Nothing would ever be the same again.
But today, now, in this moment, she knows that she sees clearly. She knows that life will never be the same again. But now that feels good. Her inner voice shouts: thanks be to God; life will never be the same again! She looks at her beautiful and precious gift, her baby. So innocent. So pure. So angelic. So beautiful. Now she knows … no, that’s not enough … now she feels, she understands in the depth of her being that God blessed her from the very beginning. Her little baby has always been her blessing, whether she knew it or not. Now she smiles! She laughs for joy! She can’t keep it in because He has made her so happy. Today her little baby has arrived, and she knows that “every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from her Father.” James 1:17
Not knowing where it came from, a prayer welled up inside her. It started so small and so quiet, barely a whisper. But it grew stronger, louder, clearer! She was so grateful. Grateful to God; grateful for her baby, grateful for all those who helped her embrace the grace of this moment. She knew now what she wanted to say, how she wanted to thank him: “You changed my mourning into dancing; you took off my sackcloth and clothed me with gladness. So that my glory may praise you and not be silent. O LORD, my God, forever will I give you thanks.” (Psalm 30:12-13)
Prayer: Good and gracious God. Your gifts never fail to show the truth of your love. O LORD, who have made the heavens and the earth … Our soul waits for you, you are our help and shield. In you our hearts rejoice; in your holy name we trust. May your mercy, LORD, be upon us; as we put our hope in you. (Psalm 33:20-22). Grant O LORD that for every good gift you give us, we may return it to you with increase. Amen.